Saturday, November 22, 2008


I went and saw the movie Twilight last night, it's caught hell from the critics, but I loved it, so did my good friend who was with me. The movie is based on the first book of an amazing series by Stephanie Meyers. It's about a young girl who moves to the pacific northwest and falls in love with a vampire, yes it's hokey! Sometimes it's fun to lose yourself in the impossible, to fall in love with a perfect being that we all know doesn't exist. Whether you're 13 or 43, trust me, you will fall in love with Edward Cullen. He's the ultimate dream guy, good looking, protective, funny and completely and totally unreal!! I think that's why I got so into these books; it gave me a chance to escape reality without the use of mind altering substances. I'm that woman who still loves Disneyland and fairy tales, who can completely lose herself in a good book. I finished all 4 of these books within 2 weeks. I would read until the wee hours of the morning, bring the book to work and read all through my lunch break. I now have to read them all again. this is one of those things that you just don't want to end!! It's fun to dream, I think that it's wonderful to still have fun with things like this, vampire love stories :) I will probably go see the movie again, and of course buy the DVD as soon as it comes out. As I write this, my perfectly wonderful boyfriend is asleep on the couch and I find myself wishing that he was a vampire!! Not really of course. He's fantastic... But in the undying words of Cyndi Lauper, "Girls just wanna have fun" And that's what these books, this movie, was. A chance for this girl to have fun, a chance to escape the nasty times that we are living in and a chance to believe the impossible... If only for a few hours!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

I love my friends

I have a blessed life, no matter what happens in the next few months at work, I am truly blessed and charmed. Not one day goes by that I don't thank God for the blessings in my life. I had a great night last night, I went to a meeting, had a great dinner with my friend and then on my way home stopped and saw my girls. These women have been by my side for more than a decade. They say if you get through life with one good friend that you are lucky. I have like 5 amazing women in my life who I know will always be there. We've been through a lot together. They saw me struggle with substance abuse and stood by me while I fought that battle, I've seen them get married, have kids, split up, remarry and raise their children beautifully. It's amazing to me how life comes full circle. It's wonderful in a place so close to Las Vegas, that's full of fake superficial people that I have this crew around me. True friends aren't the ones you call to bail you out of jail, true friends are the ones sitting in the cell with you saying "damn, oh well it was worth it!"

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Ch ch changes!

I am a native of Southern Nevada, having spent most of my life here; I have witnessed many things come and go, many changes in this city of sin. Is there anyone here that really loves it? Does anyone love Vegas? Or are we all here for some reason, as a means to an end? Something always brings me back. I escaped for a few years to sunny San Diego, I found much needed rest and relaxation and was able to get myself grounded for a while. when I finally came back here I felt ready. I have a whole new respect for this place. Vegas kicked my sweet ass and quickly. i was one of the lucky ones, I was able to get a handle on my insane life and come back here with a new found freedom. I have a love/hate relationship with this place that I call home, don't most people? I am conflicted, there's things that I love here, my family,my job. Then there's everything that I hate, but that's not just Vegas, that's most places in the fake plastic society that we live in today. when are people going to realize that it's not about money or stuff or the car you drive? Life is about the things we do when we are here. I'm going off on a bit of a tangent here, I realize this, however, there are certain things that matter and many things that don't. In times such as these that we live in, I feel it's important to focus on the things that matter, our family, our friends the love we have in our lives. Hug the people you love, tell them what they mean to you.... The wolf is always at the door.